31.7.08

Nite Time Part Two.

fuck all you . I'm mad i cant find my camera.
i wanted to put a photo up but i cant. sucks! anyway. i was gon record a blog today, but i realized...that i didn't sound as hot as i thought i did. shid, i was being just as goofy as i am in my blog. i couldn't sleep last nite. i was up pondering what I'm going to call you today in my blog. i called you a bitch yesterday so imma go with...Whore. your a whore. and a ugly one. that's why you whore yourself for free. i saw your ad in the newspaper saying " I'm a transsexual, i whore for free". your a anal whore. if that's even something mean. ANAL WHORE!.

okay. so i when over my moms pastor's house to help her set up her BLOG SPOT. crazy that shes paying me fifteen bucks a hour just to do it. insane to me. like its super easy, but tryna explain it to someone is harder than i thought I'm like damn! i just repeated myself like a gillion times. but i love working with her. shes fun and kool. so she wants to do podcast and things of that nature, so i got her the recording software and she did her first one today. imma rapper and i was amazed like...she free styled a whole scripture i was like whoa, i have to give her a hand clap.

blah so anyway ever had double cheeseburgers with bacon? its good......when its hot.... :(
mind got cold and it was hard to shallow, i almost died. were any of you gonna miss me? i was just on Adina's blog right. and i remember she used to look like a nerd, now she got like cool looking eyes and a nose ring...i think sex is the root of all evil :(. -rubs you back- your a bad girl now!woo!.

[UPDATED!]
i did the most weirdest thing in my life...smh so this female i no i ask her what sites do she be on. she replies " my space, crush spot, and downelink". so I'm like hm i never heard of downelink imma check it out. I'm like HM i wonder if alot off ppl from cs and my space are on here. so i get on and while I'm making the account it gets to orientation so I'm looking for straight and i don't see nothing...so i see "downe" so I'm thinking..okay maybe that's there version of "straight". so i make the page uploaded a photo and EVERYTHING so I'm like okay!. I'm good to go. so i started searching for friends and shit and I'm not seeing anyone that looks familiar....so i started noticing everyone thing said..."bisexual....lesbian....gay.....tranny.......ahem ...[HOLD UP]
TRANNY??!!!!!!@$!!#$
CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK TYPE TYPE TYPE!!
"you account is being deleted give us five minutes"
bitch five minutes my ass, ASAP!!!.
i got off the computer after that :(

so like Ive been sick off and one..its real kinda depressing but I'm getting over it. talking about it is making it better but ion like saying anything about it. imma stop being so wishie washie and just be like fucking it and go back to being super blunt. but its hard cause i actually care about peoples feelings. if i was heartless,....i wonder if ppl would still like me. ha. to bad I'm not. deal with it

Nite Time Withdrawl

ever wonder it is was nite time all day for one day? i thought that just as i typed it cuz i didn't have nothing else to type. but have you? that would be cool to me. i can be a freak all day(nite). i can rob people at 4pm. and do the nasty all day(nite). would that be cool? we could party all day.
i could chill all day. but at my job it'll probably be a frenzy. damn you TACO BELL!. I'm on the phone with her. and shes goofy. i shouldn't tell her things. shes nosy and laughs at everything. what a loser right? and so is her friend. she said taco has green meat. blah.

I'm bored.
so ever had the fruitisa freeze drink at taco bell? is it guy for a dude to have strawberry topping on there slush? lol dudes be like "DON'T GIVE ME NO FUCKING STRAWBERRIES!". NIGGER, if you think that's gay. then your gay. fucking fag. anyway. i drink me either. i like strawberries. blah this girl talks so much shit...damn you [tapes you mouth].

is it okay for girls to like girls. do you like em? are you a girl? are you a girl who looks like a man.
bitch don't answer that. yeah i called YOU a bitch. bitch. you a bitch. dumb bitch. your ugly. and your life is irrelevant. were you a mistake. daddy should of nutted on mommy stomach 9 months ago huh. damn him!

lol I'm bored i like talking to my readers. you guys are cool. so like i rap. and i wanna know what you think. the mix tape is coming soon but im procrastinating. i need to stop and need to stop releasing my tracks but i been wanting to know asap when something is good or not.

so she is talking about her friend hair, LEAVE HER THE FUCK ALONE. fucking loser.
they live in the same house calling themselves "roomies". commenting each other on my space right behind each other. isn't that gay?. loser,

Lajai is a fool. she need help asap. blah. I'm hungry. feed me please...
ever wanted to fly. i do.....be high and fly....smh.. ill probably hit a plane. i cant wait til i get my check. i need my credit card. aye my girls gotta big...HUGE booty. and i love it. mmmmm i wanna poke her . again...and again...

whatever this is the random night time blog. nothing serious going on.
smh she just whispered my name..mmmmm lets do it boo!

aye. read my blog comment me now. one.

30.7.08

New Layout?

I guess you can call it that. I'm not good at layout types of shit. i need to be more creative. i am but I'm lazy. i get real irritated and don't wanna fuck with it anymore. imma get more blogger buddies then jay one day watch. fuck you and your "popular blog". you be typing gibberish anyway. "blah blah blah I'm tall and i stay up past1am". well fuck you. blah anyway. i really didn't have anything to type. i just been sitting here. my job needed me to come in, but i didn't have a way there. i wanna work too. man i got a fucking raise too? i don't remember if i told my blog that but i do. that's was sup right?. money money money. imma go buy a monkey. i think someone would have a fit if i did something like that. whelp , anyway. I'm black. did you know that. like African American. yeah, cool right. what are you? are you mixed. nah your ugly. who gives a shit. this is my blog and its about me don't tell me nothing about you til i get to your blog lol. I'm just being dumb.

so i was going to the bus, to go home last Saturday, and my father pulled up with some lady who cant drive a car, even if it was remote controlled. he told me if i past this exam he'll give/help me fix up my car. about a year ago i got in a accident and since i haven't been driving, partly because i didn't have the money my self to pay for everything. when i got it fixed someone took my speakers and my twitters. and it wasn't driving right so ill have to go and get everything taken care of.

i felt kinda dumb about asking you about credit card information. but you'll never know unless you ask. so when i get my check ill go get one. thank you for being a big help in the success of Twan. without you there isn't a Twan. duh. and not you reader. oh speaking of the reader, i probably don't like you. the first reason is your probably being nosy. didn't no one tell you to come read my shit did they? of and the second is that you don't leave a fucking comment. fuck you if your not commenting. bitch. don't read my shit and don't say nothing. because if you come to me telling me shit you read. imma laugh and hang up/ stop talking to you in whatever other way i was speaking to you at the time.

help i wonder...if you know...what it means...
i been listening to my blog spot play list all day. cool huh. i don't know i think i need something else to do throughout my week. sometimes its boring other times it isn't. well this blog was just pose to be about the layout changing and I'm here ranting......

some like i had this dream, that i was fucking this girl and if your reading you might know....
and she was giving me head right...so we started fucking and i whipped out my huge.....





loll psyche. i just wanted to type something to deceive you.
peace.

whateverthattitleisidontknow

so yea yea world. man ion no whats the deal. i just another human on this gay planet. with worries like everyone else. and your now going to listen to em. ha. see how i have control over you? i don't think you'd like it if someone could control you. if you didn't have any type of privacy.NONE. always being watched. that's the worst thing about this dumb ass planet. its all about power.look okay check, i watched this movie. not sure if y'all watched it. but its called
Zeitgeist. its tell you about all these theories and how your being manipulated into doing things that your choosing to do yourself. the government makes events happen, so that they can make you decide to do another thing in there plan to make this world a one government world. the things are pretty much self explanatory. so you don't have to believe it, but id recommend that you'd at least watch it. its free on the net, just Google it if you haven't already seen it.

blah so anyway that movie had me on some other shit. fuck this world. people are dumb, and every ones been lured in. but hey, if it was something i could do to change the world. id do it. lol
HM, ever heard of Asher ROTH? he's a cool rapping white boy. check em out on my space.
"Ash Roth In the Building Tonite, Oh what A Feeling , I'm Feeling Nice. You Don't Even Gotta bring your Boyfriend Out, We can Turn The Lights Out And Play Who's In YOUR MOUTH!"
yo....doesn't that sound like a fun game? you in all your boys in a room. with one chick. lol she gotta guess who's in her jaws? lol she be like "um.....is it......James?". -slap- "nah bitch try again!." lol play it like musical chairs. put different dicks in her mouth til the music go off. lmao. I'm being hella random today.

like super random.Jay Adams is gay yo. im ready to do the tracks fag. his girlfriend pussy took a hiatus so he been down ever since. if my chick ever told me she wanted to fuck, and i bout to go over there and she fell asleep, she bet not let me have keys to her crib... imma fuck her in her sleep. she gon wake up thing she being raped. "nah its just me baby".lol man

aye man i hate how people act now days. jealous, of your own seeds? and you want them to do things for you? I've been hearing stories about this everyday and it is just sad how your own flesh can do you like that. and use you and lie to you. you gonna have your damn kids...little kids at that HOMELESS. that's nothing right about that. and i could never forgive someone who doesn't give a fuck about me. like if my peeps did me like that. i wouldn't claim those fucks. but your not suppose to treat others how they treat you? then why u wanna do ppl fucked up. man anyway..
its gon be harder for you. not you bitch, this person knows who I'm talking to. and I'm going to be there to help you out in every way possible.

okay this is personal shit
[id only advise women to be looking unless you really wanna know. fag.]
man I'm horny 100% .....okay 90% of the time. and i cant help it. i just be wanting some pussy all the time. i don't express it but i do. smh.

yo so...blogging is getting boring. my sister is annoying me.
and i miss someone yo.
blogs later.


23.7.08

mmmmmm..

the way the sex is with you ionno what to call it
im very forward i hog it, call me twan the sexaholic
let me get to the point i have a confession
i love it when your feeling me up in your midsection
it start off with a soft kiss to ya lips,
it replays all the times you said " you cant handle this"
i dis attach all your clothing while you doing mine
they way i bout to sex you is like well both be losted in time
i toss you on to the bed, suck on ya neck, some on ya chest
nah baby im not done yet...

i get to my favorite location
but baby its something i gotta do before the penetration
i lick my lips and start to spread your lips opposite directions
they why you moaning itself is causing my erection
you look excited i am too i love doing this
so i stop playing games , gets to sucking on the clitoris
im suck you up like its nothing else in my slushie
they i do wouldn't be surprised if u said don't hurt me
i start the motor on my tongue and its light speed
i feeling you get wetter thats better than it felt in my dreams

you get rowdy i gave you my dick and you start smiling
you get a grip on the tip and i start holing
my hands behind your head tryna speed you up
i start loving your face like you didn't give a fuck
but you never hesitated but neither was you patient
you made sure i came in your mouth and was back for sensation
i push on to the bed, give you head spreading ya legs
you start to scream my name..........
i slid all your entry way
they way i sex you was like i never came today
i like the dirty words out ya mouth
i flipped you over letting you ride it now
its sweat and steam like we in a shower scene
i feel you cream i do to then ..........we start over again..
to be continued.

22.7.08

Recently in the chronicles...

whats going on.
nada much this way just been chilling. been sick alot getting over it. ive been tried of being sick man. that shit is irritating. like, df. who was to be sitting in the crib for weeks not doing shit cause you've been sick. but its been keeping me out of shit thats been going on around me. my boo has been keeping me company this whole time. Ayo, thats my baby for real. lol like yall dont understand. she had been keeping me sane when i wanna go insane. even when she makes me wanna go insane and vice versa. and its weird, but im diggin it. lol this nigga jay was like:

jay. (7/19/2008 12:09:49 AM): Put me on.
BreathEAZY - (7/19/2008 12:10:21 AM): thats the same chick bro
jay. (7/19/2008 12:10:29 AM): You're still with her?!
jay. (7/19/2008 12:10:31 AM): -daps.
jay. (7/19/2008 12:10:32 AM): My nigga.
jay. (7/19/2008 12:10:34 AM): You're a great man.

word tho. i think im doing good.
yo i got a raise and didn't even no it. i looked at my check like " yo another buck 20??" incredible right? i worked three days this week. something is better than nothing right? im making double what i used to be making. blah. i need to hurry up and get this damn credit card. so i can max it the fuck out...smh..i being patient til i can be able to pay it for real for real. i can now. but since i been sick i haven't been working steady. tryna get well first.

ive been talking nasty to her lately. lol. like super nasty. and i love it. she makes me wanna do stuff i wouldn't do to anyone ever. she can have all of my big hang pang slang man. for real. we were sex'n in my dream the other night and i was giving her that "cantstop,wontstop". i was eating her vagina like i was going to jail for life. she let me empty the soldiers in.... nvm
tmi twan...
anyway she told me her story....and wow..i almost came instantly. smh at how im typing. my big old freaky ass. but anyway. imma get back to typing to her on y!.

ps.. take my pics boo..

15.7.08

yo

next subject.
smh im kinda shocked.
forreal.
lying to me over petty ish.
and you cool with lying to me is the killin part.
but aye if u feel that at the end of the day lying
was the best why to go about it they whatever.
i just thought u was who u said u was.

REAL

14.7.08

smh at how things became..
and its not me who made it like this...

6.7.08

31208

man im so super tired man. yesterday i got up at 10 and chilled before i got dressed at eleven. i got dropped off at the bus stop on 7mile to go all the way on the eastside, which from there is a hour drive.[well when your on the bus]. i didnt have to be there until 2 but i got off the bus at eastland mall at 12 49. took me fifteen minutes to walk to work. and i was thinking about everything i typed last night. thinking about how i didnt get to say what i wanted to say, and how does she feel. i made it to work at 1:05.
they was surpised i actually got to work earlier. it was a real mellow day like super slow. we wasall really just playing and thats about it. it was super boring like forreal forreal. 5 customers a hour. so
we was fucking with this nigga name james who complains like a lil bitch. lol he like 25 asking questions i knew since i was 12. he asked " if you got your girl pregnant and she dont get sick, can u get her symptoms?. yes dumbass you can..

it was like 7:53 and i got off. i walked to the gas station to get something to drink and walked back to eastland when i got the txts where we start talkin about yesterday. i gotto the bus and almost missed it so i ran. got to the bus headed to the back...

looking out the window i started thinking...and i noticed i was sleepy as hell. next thing i know the bus driver is yelling "young man! you gettin off at the end of this stop?...YOUNG MAN!"
im like "yes yes...yea i am"

i made it home.

i feel bad, its my fault and she right. but ionno if she was having a mood swing or if she was really mad because she really went off on me. and it was nothing i could say...i just was silent like wow.
i just want to have a conversation where we can just talk and i know everything would be good. because she no i understand her and vice versa.

i love' er.

i woke up this morning...feelin sick as hell. super sick...
im okay ... imma find something to do.

one.

5.7.08

well..

its 3:30Am
Im On The Phone With Her
Shes Doesnt Know That Im Shaking
Nor That Fact That I Got Real Cold..
Havent Noticed That I Dropped My Phone
And My headphones..And Stumbled...
fumbling my words...
she just knows that im silent...
trying to act normal but i cant...


reason is this is the worst feeling i ever had in my life. like i never felt like this.
she just asked me was i still typing...yes i am. i want her to know that i feel terrible.
i feel like i owe her something...i feel like i cant change anything.
i feel like no matter what i do, in the end imma lose.
i got shit here that im dealing with and vice versa on her end. so i no in alot of ways she feels how i do. but she stresses more than i do. she got more to worry about that i do. she has responbilities to take care, and in my case i dont even no the half of how that feels.. i dont want her to feel like she alone and shit. i dont want to both be stressed out.

streets on fire is on...

anyway...im crying in the inside. and i never felt like that. wait, damn.. i just dropped a tear...
i didnt wanna do that.. i dont want any signs that im hurt. i want shit to be better. i wish i could help you. i wish i could help you ease the ways you feel, i do. but in reality i no as of now i cant.
and i wish all could stop here. just be me& you. thats what i want. cuz you tell me this and this is one thing i cant denie, it'll never be another you. its my fault and im sorry..

like, i want things to be better, no stress on your end or mine. no need for you to be jealous.
like, i knew once you wish you was getting the attention you want....

okay im talking shhh... i really don't no what to say cuz i feel so bad...

its 3:41am...

i dropped another one...
i wish i could of made you something to eat...and you wouldn't of had to get up
sigh. i apologize for stressing you. and making things worse...

but i cant walk away cuz i no how i feel...
but if thats what you want then i cant fight you...
i cant be selfish... but i want to be....
like this is such a big deal to me...
im like in love in shit....

i hate that you feel weird about stuff..
ionno what to do..sigh..
i feel so bad..

feel like imma die.

fin.

4.7.08

I Used To Rule The World...

now im the morning i sleep alone... ...sweep the streets that i used to own..



well then,
its been a long week.its the 4th now time to eat eat and watching sparkley shit fly and explode in the sky.
I'm hungry now so i wanna get my eat on soon. its been fucking fireworks going off all fucking week around here. i stood on my roof with my fucked up leg and if certain ppl [cough] find out i did that with my fucked up leg they'll have a fit[even tho i just told on my self].

i miss the good old days, when u could be bad and run around and spray ppl with the water hose and they get mad and chase you. or when i used to play prank on ppl. or when u didn't have to spend your own money and you could just spend it on whatever u wanted to. when playing with toys was cool. when the super Nintendo was the best system ever. when street fighter and mortal kombat was the SHIZZIT.

but its long gone and its time to be a man. but its cool to reflect on shit that you liked to do when you was a kid. but growing up was something i thought was gon be forever and i remember when i couldnt want to be grown. and get out my mom house. and no one could tell me what to do. lol not knowing it was easier said then done. so naive young antwan was. but i got ppl who got my back thats gon make sure i get where i need to get, And even though im stubborn lol they stick by me and thats cool.

OH!! and if you havent noticed my unofficial mixtape is over so check it out[everyone]. i no i no, it has tracks thats not going on my real mixtape but some are so if u a true friend you no, let me know how you feel. is it YAH or NAH?

i feel like im not senstive enough sometimes.so now i try to watch what i say because i dont want to hear anyones feelings. and i dont want anyone thinking im attacking them. like i feel bad because its not intentional. its just twan being twan. i also think i do it to hide my own sensitivity. well i know i do. and alot of stuff kinda hit me easy but i dont show it. but i know that. and i feel like sometimes i cant express myself without someone taking it outta context and it really be simple so its easy.

i gotta finish later..

just know how i feel..
and think on it...