23.11.08

Hmm

internet is a beautiful place. bet you wish you could live their eh. ugh random talking. but im not gonna stay in my blogs long. i think imma try to get lajai to blog a lil. she been going through to much. i cant wait til xmas time though. alot is going on. 09 is coming, im not gonna be in michigan. thats gonna be exciting woot. ugh im mad i go too much time on my hands. time to find something to do. ugh women.... imma leave it at that. this is what i be talking bout ppl! lol keeping it 100 is a must. anyway i might go shopping again, but i gotta save for my vehicle. insurance and all the things that needs to be updated.

so my EX-MAS list .
ugh just looks cool egh?

i still want a xbox.
i think imma just stop there cause its sad that i still dont have one. ugh UPS can suck my dick. im really tryna get back in their :(. hope at&t calls me.. anything is better than nothing..

so on that note... imma just leave this blog for another time when i wanna. with working, making moves, fake people, and other shit.. ion got time to entertain the tall tales.

8.11.08

Abyss...

my face is the tightest as its even been in a while. my earbrows are almost touching eachother and my lips arent moving. feels like their stuck together. my eyes are fluttering. i havent felt this way since Anthony died. i havent felt this way since...never. i didnt drop a tear cause im sad. nor did i drop one because someone died.i dropped one for me. i dropped one because im misunderstood, miscalculated, misinterpreted.im judged before knowledge of who i am. im indirectly bashed in ways i never knew existed.you dont know what ive been through, so theirfore you will never know why this effects me the way it does. im being judged base on nothingness. what do you know about me. you know my name is Antione. thats about it.

i was thinking i was being dodged. i felt in my gut something wasnt right. not even that i felt that something is changing. i couldnt put my finger on it, but i knew it. for a minute i could tell. i just didnt know exactly what it was. Lajai told me dont think so hard, cause it might not even be how im taking it. but it was. not exactly but i was right.

so what im in a rock in a hard place or am i in a nonexistence place. i dont even no what else to say cause i felt something of the sort coming along. i just didnt know how it would come. and i never had a feeling like this. to make my face turn upside down and dropp one tear out my left eye. like im lost for words cause i feel like " what kinda bull shit is this". so am i pose to be forgotten or am i pose to accept the bullshit? like what am i to say to this? what kinda conclusion do i make of this situation?

whatever...and is that just it. or is it more to it....
will i find out.. whatever ... fuck typing.

youve made other decisions on you own, whats different in this one?

November Season

so i just got home from work. man what a long day. it was actually boring really. i woke up like 30 minutes before i actually have to leave to head for work. so i didn't really get to eat anything but a sandwich. ugh why oh why...must i slap a bitch. this lil ass "child" at my job almost lost her face talking to me. i decided i would work extra hard to day just cause i was bored. so i helped on drive thru and she had nerve to act as if i had to help her. so being the person i am, i threw the headset at her and walked away saying " bitch you can suck my dick duck, you got me fucked up". rude i know. do i care? nah.

moving along. people urk my nerves.for like the past two weeks i been annoyed. I've been randomly just hanging up on people and turning my people off cause i don't feel like being bothered. i been working alot more hours now and I'm bout to start working daily now. so I'm getting rid of all the waste of timers and making room for the time savor'ers. if that makes since.

ugh maybe i am becoming bipolar or something. cuz ill be good,till i start thinking about things. but i don't really get mad or swing moods, i just like get more serious about things. so it may seem I'm being funny acting, but I'm really not...I'm just focused MAN!

i really wanna go back to Michigan State like i did couple weeks ago. college parties are always fun.til you get drunk and past out in a dorm room. shhh dont tell know one. Nae asked me to drive back, i surely wasn't risking that. thought i might die. fun times fun times..

I'm in love with something...
i listen to it everyday and it makes my day. like it really does. the variety it gives me for each mood I'm in and how it keeps me in a great mood with in feeling down. damn i love you music.

lol lame eh i know. fuck you. aye fuck you too. you make me vomit and shit at the same time reader. ugh you whom read and don't comment fuck you too. hope your testicles/ovaries explode.

anyways back to my evening...

6.11.08

Be Excited.

New Layout And Post. So Obviously I Got My Hat On My Head. I had TO Go crack some heads last night and threaten a couple lives but no one was harmed. thank god to them. anyway, i took that test yesterday that shit was pretty easy til i got to the science which i have no memory of , cause i know that was one class i never paid attention in. i hated science. to many chemicals and all this other shit. other than that im think i did pretty well. so well see what happens next week. i need a cut, as you can see in the photo's above and imma make it my fucking busy to go today. i been over my dads this week since i have nothing esle to do. i was prepared for the speech i was going to get, but wow. i got the speech of all speeches two nights ago. what a nite. well my nigga barack won. i wrote my " I Voted " sticker proudly on my forehead. i met alot of interesting people on election day. this dude called some chick a nigger and threated her life. im like WOW. people still let ignorance overpower change. times have changed, let it go. lets move on to more important things other than you holding a fucking grudge cause a african american is in office. geez... moving on.
i hate when i feel as something is going on, but i just cant put my finger on it. im not talking about anything in particular or am i? it just seems like im not being included in something that i should be included in. and its making me think but i dont wanna think to hard and be wrong. so im kinda "iffy" about it right now. but imma keep it to my self.

Bitch whats happenen
known to get it crackin
heard bout cha already baby
you can stop the actin
i say im drunker den a mu-fucker
higher then a kite
lost my mind and my cell phone in the same night

this fucking song be coming on all day on my computer. this used to be my shit. yo i know what i want for christmas. who wants to give me gifts? anyone? if you do comment me asap cause i have a item for each specific person. lol but seriously imma treat my self big this year for xmas.
im kinda irritated, like just now i am. ionno why. i was pose to post some songs..but i never did em. :( i hate my procrastinating ass sometimes. anyway im rabbling im gone. hmph.

2.11.08

They Dont Remember That.

yo, new day. its already Sunday and its funny how my weeks go by so fucking fast. it seem like when I'm doing something weeks go by so far, but months go by so slow. so like I'm really gonna go vote. bout time i been able to participate in something with this damn world. cuz i would of been the final vote to get John Kerry or Al gore in the fucking office. ITS A RECESSION BITCH!. so ion no how but if blog spot lets me imma make a list of shit that i want to accomplish and as i do each one i going to cross it out. its alot i need to accomplish this year going to the new 09 year.

anyway, work was annoying yesterday. df how am i pose to do everything by my self and they got plenty of people their to assist me. and want to complain about how slow I'm going. bitch kiss my ass. today i said i was gon record some music so well see how they goes. if i come back and make another blog today then i most likely did some. i need to write about how i see haters every direction i go or something of the sort. cause got damn its frustrating to hear people down your neck whom don't for one second know a thing about you. oh and let me find out someone making a reference towards me and I'm in that ass. [ hint hint].

okay time to start doing shit no long blog today. peace